Beloved superstar chef Anthony Bourdain took his own life in 2018.

Much of what he went through in the weeks and months leading up to his death has remained secretive due to efforts by friends and family to close ranks and keep it under wraps for his privacy’s sake.

However, a new book (“Down and Out in Paradise: The Life of Anthony Bourdain”), due out soon by journalist Charles Leershen, delves into the chef’s private moments and experiences of his loved ones before he took his own life.

In a text to ex-wife Ottavia Busia-Bourdain, with whom he remained close until the end, Bourdain wrote, “I hate my fans, too. I hate being famous. I hate my job.”

He continued, “I am lonely and living in constant uncertainty.”

Bourdain’s family has called the accounts untruthful, hurtful, and “defamatory,” with his brother Christopher writing to the publisher to ask that they not release the books until corrections have been made to fact-check.

The publisher dismisses statements that the book is defamatory and plans to publish it anyway.

The last text Bourdain sent before his life was a back and forth with his ex, where he asked, “Is there anything I can do?” She responded back, “Stop busting my balls.” He answered, “Ok.”

He hanged himself hours later.