Influencer Gwendolyn Patkunas shared a GRWM as she got ready for her birthday this week.

Patkunas says that “Honestly I hate my birthday,” she explains, “Because I don’t like a lot of attention on me, which is weird because I post on TikTok.”

This year, she turned 23, which she says is weird because ‘everyone always thins that I’m like 16.”

And, she adds, “I’m really old and I don’t have my shit together.”

Patkunas’s bestie Zoe shows up and the pair admits they’re the online trope of the black cat and golden retriever duo – but Zoe, whose hair is dark, is the golden retriever. Patkunas is the black cat.

In the end, Patkunas shows off her brilliant birthday look, minus the outfit – that needed a part 2.